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ChatGPT just presented me with the a word that describes what I have struggled with a lot throughout my personal enlightenment path. I'll give you my versions, respectively ChatGPT's version: --- My XP: I have often witnessed that the quest for freedom from shame and social punishment or judgment actually comes with extra social judgment and punishment, because trying to not care about what people think, so you do just your stuff, and very often actually that is interpreted as showing off. I hate it, and most people do it, especially whenever I feel free and by doing so making it more difficult to feel free (around them or in the future). Even more, in the past I held off from doing stuff that could be seen as showing off, but sometimes those exact things are pleasant to do for yourself and not to show off and people can't make the difference or forget to put their biases aside or forget the benefit of the doubt. --- ChatGPT: What you’re describing is a very common and s...

Hurt people hurt people By hurting narcissist one is hurting other innocent people indirectly (and most of the hurt the narcissist did is already boosted from other people taking revenge on them). Narcissists are the kind of people that turn hurt into hurting others and it doesn't have to be the people who hurt them, anybody around is good enough. Doesn't mean one's hurt from them is worth nothing and it doesn't mean we have to let them do it. What it means, is that it is fucking hard to resolve this problem, even going in the right direction is full of kindle and oil. Narcissists are one of the most difficult people to heal or to let them heal themselves... It's ironic really, most sociopaths KNOW they are hurting people but they don't care, while most narcissists don't realize it and they would care if they knew but they think they are perfect -in their protective superficial mind, or at least better than other people- and never hurt people or they think i...

 This is why I think some types of activism and politics are wrong.  And let's ignore politics today not being in the interest of the people anymore. This was left by a couple spending late hours at the coast having some good times. Too lazy to get out of the car, take one step and throw it in the trash. Now, I find these spots all over Spain, national Parc, kilometers away from any houses or not and I mean EVERYWHERE! These people will always exist, especially among the young people that haven't become responsible yet..if they ever would.. Politics and activism often try to inform people, try to initiate behavioural change. But I don't believe in that (anymore for a holistic change in this specific matter). There will always be some assholes or young ones that haven't grown up yet. What we need to focus on is not allowing companies to make non-bio-degradable packaging anymore, even less bio degreeable ones. O yeah,as for the argument 'Someone will clean it up anywa...

Being a réal man  (as they say) actually requires the same strength as being a real woman , namely the strength to resist one's own nature on occasion. Only their nature might differ a bit.

  Brothers and sisters, let's abandon the myth that insecurity necessarily comes from a lack of love of oneself! Someone that loves oneself dearly can still be insecure. Such a person has no problems accepting and loving oneself. The real problem here is that they value the acceptance, approval or love of others more than one's own. Thank you (And don't we all do -at least at times- a bit of that?)

LOVE meat, yet do not eat Disgusted by gay sex, yet pro gay rights. I'd like a housewife or off-grid hippy, yet supporting her any way I want to murder stupid people, yet tolerance, understanding and fun find me One dark inside, yet care and love prevail Be thyselve, they say... Nay, I cannot.. I am the "unreal" vegan I am the homofoob I am the sexist I am the arrogant bigot I am ! ... yet I love and I grow Bore heavy loads Given heart & soul Sought no crown ...still... There it bodes and bodes a darker hole As you look down Utopia needs darkness.. ..at least written down. - yours truly

Honest conflict has more social value than dishonest harmony . - Joe Rogan

I see so many victims (Pain made them) Change into monsters themselves Makes me wonder Haven't most monsters been victims? Did an actual step on a toe started it? Did the few real monsters? For sure the solution is tolerance and understanding..

Here is something I experienced a couple of hours ago and though I might have to edit this text, I wanted to share it already to anyone interested in meditation, especially the "no thoughts" meditation as I call it now. As usual, it contains some on-first-sight contradictions that really aren't if you think it through. If you know me, you might still not be used to it, but at least you're warned now. :-) I hope once to create a meditation youtube channel and you might catch the edited version then. Here I go... When you are meditating on "just being", "not thinking" -or at least the one I experienced once, near Oeiras, Portugal, august 2017- and when you reach it, you won't realize it on that moment, because I suppose that would mean you just lost it because realizing is some way of thinking, or at least losing your focus.  But you  might realize it after your meditation. At least that is what I did then. Don't worry, you will still en...

One that is not able to abandon anything, will fail to bring about any change. Something that I got from the anime "Attack on Titan". Found it very beautiful and I myself am not completely able to abandon anything..Working on it! I have in the past, but apparently it was not a permanent ability. (I think it's misplaced in the general ethics of the anime, more or less, but yeah..)

Life, the meaning thereof? God, 42, redemption, the hereafter..? First let's live & love and talk about it after.. Notes:  Humor intended! Nonetheless, the clue of the real meaning I aim for, lies in the same last phrase..  42, what? -> http://hitchhikers.wikia.com/wiki/42

I'm a buddhist & a nihilist, an empiricist & idealistic fantasist, a nerd & an anarchist, a thinker & a slapstick winker, a square & a dare, ... Putting people in a box IS being trapped inside a box!

Everybody should meditate 30 minutes a day. Unless one doesn't have time of course, then one should meditate an hour!! Thanks, Sam !

Poem from a woman to a porn-addicted man. After reading it, I wondered: What is porn-addiction? What is sex-addiction, in any form? Maybe I have that too?  Maybe porn itself ( at least in its current form ) is an addiction in se! It's so widespread and sex is used everywhere today. Mostly for selfish purposes. I resent it, but it's everywhere! I' don't think I'm influenced (much) by commercials -I even start to hate certain labels and companies because of the commercial- but I am influenced by sexy pictures and women! I don't want it (though something in me wants it obviously). At the same time it clashes with that theory, I believe(d) in, namely that (some kind of) porn makes some part of the unlucky male population less agressive and less otherwise unhappy.  I always believed that, and still do..kind of (Cfr. Japan) But even then, isn't it going too far? Anyone knows the movement " ' fight the new drug '" ? I didn't, until now. I...

Moon, ...giant leap for mankind. Mankind, ...not even crescent for humanity.

If speech is silver and silence is gold ... Then listening must be diamond!

What depresses me the most? Other people! What's the best anti-depressivum? Other people! :-) :-) Just me or typically human?

Be yourself, everyone else is already taken. -Oscar Wilde

Self reminder: Above all TAKE IT EASY .. NO MATTER WHAT because NOT taking it easy is part of the problem.